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rough week
Nov. 1st, 2007 12:48 amit has occurred to me that accusations of being withdrawn, hard to know and repressed have come from people who don't realize the only way they want to be opened up to is sexually.
when the weather stirs like this i think it's me and it is, i guess, as much as anything. all i need is four nails two boards two trees one hammer and just me. they never believe anyhow. end up running with the wrong words regardless; the ones about coaxing flames from unattended embers and backbreaking heights climbed blindly and limber.
they tell me i'm lucky, though. that i'm better off for not knowing; better off silent and powerless. what a relief, she writes cynically, to know you're not worth the effort.
when the weather stirs like this i think it's me and it is, i guess, as much as anything. all i need is four nails two boards two trees one hammer and just me. they never believe anyhow. end up running with the wrong words regardless; the ones about coaxing flames from unattended embers and backbreaking heights climbed blindly and limber.
they tell me i'm lucky, though. that i'm better off for not knowing; better off silent and powerless. what a relief, she writes cynically, to know you're not worth the effort.
